Changing Direction

This semester, I signed up for several PEDU classes, thinking I will be able to get in shape and be healthy, etc. etc. I need this.
Well, let me tell you what,.....

They. are. whipping. my. ass.

Yup, AND, to boot, my pilates class is done in a dance studio in front of those full-length dance mirrors. You can see youself.

And, so, in front of those mirrors, I discovered something between today and yesterday's spin class where we weighed ourselves and body fat %,........
I have gotten FAT.
Not fat.
Not overweight.
But, FAT.

I am so depressed and mad at myself, this is not me. I have lulled myself (allowed myself to be lulled, rather!) into a state of 'I can eat anything and not gain weight'. Well, when you don't work like you used to or are used to doing, you cannot eat anything and not gain weight.
Oh my gaush, I am so overweight, I just want to cry.
So, doing a serious diet and working out at the classes and riding a lot should help all of this, this semester. I need to get back to being 'me'.
-Em