Eat Pray Love, by Elizabeth Gilbert

Two days ago, I believe, I persuaded Danny to go to Wal-Mart with me, or rather, take me seeing as how I had already downed 1/2 a bottle of Asti earlier that evening. So, at 9:30pm, we trudged into Wal-Mart. on a mission. to find a movie I saw reviews and a trailer for online that I know cannot remember the name of. It had Julia Roberts in it and was a romantic/adventure. My kind of movie, well, at least it sounded like it. Never found it. Obviously, it was not that important. We did, however, find 4 other movies (discounted prices of course), and I picked up a copy of 'Eat Pray Love' by Elizabeth Gilbert as a sort of 'reconilation' for not finding the movie of choice that drove us (me) to Wal-Mart in the first place.
Well, oh man.
Last night, after another disagreement (one the night before that as well, pretty intense,......), about 11pm, couldnt sleep. Danny was sound-o, but my mind was buzzing. Absolutely buzzing. with worry, depression, lonlieness, and a million other little 'things' that were completely filling my entire being and would not leave me to sleep, something I rarely have trouble with. SO, I grabbed my old t-shirt from the day and glasses off the counter and kind of snuck (sort of) into the office. and read.......for 2 hours. Finally, the words were blurring and I found myself rereading things, not really taking them in. But, this book was too important to let myself blur the words, the message. I understood, I wanted to know more, how do I get that peace, that self-reliant happiness, our author is seeking??!?!?! I felt it was only fair to the book, to put it down and crawl into bed.
This morning, I promptly made my coffee and sat down to read it. I just finished it however many hours later in the day. I am inspired and aware. It is a damn good book if I do say so myself.
I guess lately with Danny and I fighting and me unsure of what exactly I need to do/want to do, etc. I feel like I need to do something. Do something for us. for me. for my career, whatever it may be now. for his career, whatever it may be,.......if he really knows, etc. I am just tired of fighting and not really feeling, well, the passion, the love, between us anymore. It's like we are living two seperate lives, and we come together when he gets home, vent on each other, and then, fight. I just don't know anymore about what to do, what we are. So many different little thoughts I want to try to work out, but I just want to think on them. Stuff the book's message and story has evoked and made me think about for my own life.
Message for the day, however, not necessarily from the book, but perhaps was a simple, statement, is this:
LIVE SIMPLY, LIFE IS SIMPLE.
Talk more later, looking at apartments in the area and working with the horses (Pokey and Gu), later on today.
-Em