Ok, just got the 2nd coffee for the morning, life is good. Thank you God for my wonderful fiance.
Over the past several days, I have been more in than out of a depressed state of myself. I won't go into details, but just feeling overwhelmed and unloved and frustrated.
Guru is off now for 6 months. I made the executive desicion on that over the weekend ( with his permission of course!), which I knew I was going to have to do. Rode in the ring with Di watching for a good while, walk, trot, and he offered canter instead of trot, and he was just not happy. Tried long contact, picking him up, pushing him forward and letting him just jog, nothing was right. He was unsound walk, trot, and canter in the ring. Now, on the hills, he loves the hills, he did stride out, but I bet he was not 100% on that either, he just loves our hacks and going out, bless him. So, anyway, getting his shoes pulled this week ( Billy Martin, since Steve farrier is out with hip surgery-more on that 'ephinany/ final descision and thoughts on farrier work' with Danny and change of plans for Danny later,........) and beginning his time off, Dec. 2009. So, in the meantime, lots of bananas and some light walk hacks are in order, but that's it.
So anyway, that with finals and just lots of little stuff that we are going through and descions and vet schools and what we are planning on doing with our lives, etc. are just kind of getting to me, and I was getting forlorn. So, Danny told me last night, finally,................................................
"I have been telling you to have a good day, so go and have one. Go do something fun and good, like a massage or go up to Harbison or shopping or whatever you want to do...."
"Like have a massage, perhaps? Like get the Estee-Lauder fragrance I have been pinning for from the mall ever since I sprayed it onto one of those little tester Estee Lauder paper sample bits and have been carrying around with me and smelling it? And made you smell? And you liked it?......."
"Yes!"
"Oh."
" Yes! I have been telling you to do that! You need to just have a day to yourself and have a really really good day."
"Ok, like tomorrow?"
"Like yes! Like today, like tomorrow! Just have all good days."
"I love you."
So, I scheduled a massage this morning at 11:30am at a really nice massage/spa/salon and then going to Harbison and perhaps the bookstore-Barnes and Nobles, returning a book, and also need to pay D's truck payment sometime in the near future-perhaps today if I can find a BB&T bank nearby or pass by one.
I have been thinking about getting a massage, just to relieve stress and burdens I feel. D gave me a small one the other day, and I honestly just about melted. I need that. I need massages.
Guru needs massages. So do I! AND, good idea for one of D's stocking stuffers,....he needs a massage too, whether he knows it or not. ;) Mmmmm, though that is something to think about b/c he says he doesn't really like massages, but he has never really had a professional one, so I might need to do a small one, like a scalp and shoulders one or something? We'll see about that. ;)
Ok, I need to go. Much love! Happy, on the bit, through, bending (correct bending, something that was not shown very much at the show Di and I judged ( I scribed,......) the other day, but that's another story,......well, not really. It was cold. We had to set up our own tent, it was cold. We had no sides to the tent, just a tent to block the sun, which doesn't help the cold. Windy. Lots of Intro tests, it was cold. Did I mention cold? Di and I were both wrapped up with the blankets (quarter-sheets) we brought at the last minute. My hand was numb. I hope the riders could read the comments I put and that 'str8' means straight. Ha-ha. Just a little scribing abbr. there), 20 metre circles to you!
-Em
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